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Name: Bill
Birthday: 4/20/1974
Gender: Male
Interests: I have a 6 year old son named Jack Henry. He lives with my ex/his mother. I am currently "resting" due to the huge strain divorce has placed on me and the severe depression I was in when I lost my wife and son. I don't blame her. I still love her, but we just went through a very stressful time (read:I died and was in a coma 3 months). I am just about recovered emotionally but have never been alone my whole life and I am an Aspergers "dreamer" which means that I go through life without being able to focus. I am a genius and can do anything, but I need a partner who can help guide me otherwise I am lost and will wander aimlessly through life.
Expertise: I loved my wife for being there for me like that, but she said it was hard controlling me, but I never knew what exactly was wrong with me and did not realize it was Aspergers until my son had an IEP test which placed him as autistic and I recognized a lot of the signs. Now I know why I've always felt alien and different, I have better control over myself and don't need constant guidance, but I do need help.
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Member Since:
9/24/2009
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| Well, nevermind anything because obviously I'm not even good enough to read your blog I know I'm a retard but shit, I didn't know I was hated, that hurts.
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| All about me in a nutshell - or all the stuff that wouldn't fit under my info.
Umm quick personality things. I am an Aspie, meaning I have Aspergers' syndrome / High Functioning Autism. I am an INFP according to the Meyer's-Brigg's Personality Test. As far as Dr. Hartmann's color code, I am about 80% Blue, 10% White, 6% Yellow, and 4% Red. I also consider myself to be an HSP Highly Sensitive Person.
I have lost a lot of weight, talking like 200lbs, in the past few years, but I can't help of think of myself negatively. I have a low self esteem.
I want to be a minister or a counselor and help others with their lives. I truly only feel good when I make other people happy. I feel appreciated for something and forget that I am so down on myself.
I am a genius with an IQ probably in the 160's. I took an IQ test for and rated at 142 but I wasn't even trying. I like to write, I love being romantic. I write poetry and love to surprise people by being randomly nice to them.
I am a serious Christian. I don't believe that religion should be pushed, but that we will accept it as needed. I also don't believe that only Christians are loved and go to heaven with God. God is omnipotent and can do whatever, be whatever he wants and I will never judge anyone else for their belief.
I am a social retard. I have only seriously dated two women and I have only been intimate with my ex wife. It's not that I'm a prude or believe sex before marriage is a sin, but that I am afraid of giving myself to someone lest I fall in love with them and they leave me. I will only be intimate with someone I know loves me and wants me forever.
I have a 6 year old son named Jack Henry. He lives with my ex/his mother. I am currently "resting" due to the huge strain divorce has placed on me and the severe depression I was in when I lost my wife and son. I don't blame her. I still love her, but we just went through a very stressful time (read:I died and was in a coma 3 months). I am just about recovered emotionally but have never been alone my whole life and I am an Aspergers "dreamer" which means that I go through life without being able to focus. I am a genius and can do anything, but I need a partner who can help guide me otherwise I am lost and will wander aimlessly through life.
I loved my wife for being there for me like that, but she said it was hard controlling me, but I never knew what exactly was wrong with me and did not realize it was Aspergers until my son had an IEP test which placed him as autistic and I recognized a lot of the signs. Now I know why I've always felt alien and different, I have better control over myself and don't need constant guidance, but I do need help.
My ex always complained that my head was in the clouds and I would never finish anything though I had brilliant ideas and I will write 90% of a story, book or script and set it aside and never finish it because I get sad when it's over.
I believe that man and woman are made for each other. That G*d expects us to be together and form a whole. I truly despise all the new age psychobabble about being a whole person on your own and being happy by yourself before you can be loved truly. God made us to be one together. Woman was made to make man complete. No matter how much I wish or try I cannot prove G*d wrong and to those who think they know better, do you really know better than G*d? You will never be whole alone nor will you ever be truly happy. I mean I'm not a complete waste on my own or anything like that, but I crave companionship and need an aspect to myself that I do not have.
When I was married, I was so happy. I was a husband and father. All was right with the world. She completed me and I completed her we made one whole out of two halves. 1=(2*1/2) I was the breadwinner and made the money and did all the man things and she was the housewife and did all the motherly things. I am not sexist, I'd gladly reverse roles and be a stay at home parent because that's the most important job.
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